Good Grief
Sometimes this grief
Is just too much for me
They say time would heal
What hurts now
one day won’t even be real
Just give it time
This pain no more will you feel
If this is true
Then I ask you
Time Time please go away
Don’t come back another day
Let me be
Let my grief stay
My last connection to the one who went away
Please time don’t take my grief away
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Comment:
I year ago my grandmother passed away. I didn’t realize it at the time, but she was my best friend. I feel like her love for me was truly unconditional love. And I miss her. I miss her a lot. In her final days and until her passing, I couldn’t come back to be with her because of the difficulty of getting a flight while Corona was raging. So even though there is not much I could have done, I feel guilty. I wish so many things . . .
I wish I could have been by her side when she fell sick.
I wish I was there to tell her how much I loved her over and over again.
I wish after she passed, I could have honored her by carrying her to her final resting place.
I wish I could have buried her myself.
So a year after, I still live with all these wishes. In my own way, I still grieve for her loss. And I’m not ready to really let go of that grief. It’s bizarre, but I feel like this grief is my last connection to her, so I cherish it, I guard it. Maybe one day I will let go, but for now, my grief is my comfort.
I wrote this in her memory.