Unmask Me
I wear a mask
So I can hide
Scared to show
The person inside
So I wear a disguise
I dress in an elaborate lie
While I don a smile
bearing the darkness of the night
I wonder
If people know me
Would they still talk to me
Be friends with me
Would my family love me
Will my other half want me
Won’t the whole world disown me
Wont my loved ones loath me
Won’t my people shun me
Oh woe to me
I hide me from me
Emabarrsed of who I am
Disappointed in who I’m not but could be
Bad habits keep me from being free
Negative traits mock my humanity
How many times did I lack temerity
How many times did my life show the opposite of purity
Strived to be G-dly but fell short of being worth my animality
Ask G-d to save me
But then I realized
I didn’t see with it my own eyes
But I felt that maybe I don’t have to live a lie
It is true
I am flawed
That maybe my life doesn’t deserve to be something people applaud
That I try so hard but it seems for naught
That I am broken filled with fault
That so much pain is part of my lot
but yet am I not the creation of Gd
By my very being a work of art
That I may or may not be sharp or smart
But That I have a heart
That I’m a human
And if you tear me apart
You’ll see that I am different not the same
Or similar or parallel
Not identical
But distinct and particular
Unique and peculiar
Distinguishable
An individual
For When G-d creates
He does deliberately
He acts Intentionally
Affectionately
Poetically
What He creates He creates Perfectly
Never accidentally
His creations cannot be superfluous but
Are an absolute Necessity
Therefore the world might not notice me
I might be a speck of dust on the surface of infinity
Floating as a drop through the sea of eternity
Where my reality is temporality
My essence rendered unnecessary
My being being merely discretionary
But the world can’t live without me
The universe needs me
I am here because existence turns on me
So I’m alive I can breath
If you prick me I will bleed
I can see
I can choose
I am free
I have needs
I am beautiful just because I am me
So I will decide to be true to me
I will take off this mask from me
Even if the world doesn’t think I am handsome or pretty
Even though I have darkness within me
Scars that grace my face
Bruises wrapped around my body like a lace
That my past is there and cannot be erased
That my flaws are real and should not be embraced
All my life I’ve been using my disguise as my hiding place
Longing to be invisible taking up no space
But I don’t need this mask anymore to encase my face
I’m Unafraid
I’m done with this Self doubt
And self hate
Secure that my soul can bear the burden of any weight
I have choice to choose my own fate
I’m free
Created in the image of Gd
I have true inner beauty
Unmask Me, please